Were packing up and getting ready to head out first thing in the morning…like, before the sun gets up, first thing!
I am full of a ton of very different emotions. Too many to even try and articulate really.
We officially said “goodbye” to my Dad this weekend. It was a very hard yet amazing time spent with my family and we made memories I will never forget. There is no manual or how-to guide when it comes to losing your parent then almost immediately jumping on a plane to go half way across the world to pick up a one year old who doesn’t know you from any other ‘ferengi’ (white person) . I know this is not going to be easy. As much as all my God loving peeps keep telling me how great it’s is going to be with a ginormous plastic-y smile plastered to their beautiful faces, I know its going to be hard. Probably very hard. But in the HARD, it will still be good. I am breathing deep and playing one worship song on re-peat that fills me with a peace that passes all my understanding; speaking the truth of who God is to me over and over. It calms my sporadically beating heart and reminds me HE is in control and HE planned this for my life before I was even born.I am the LORD your God, I go before you now.
I stand beside you, I’m all around you
And though you feel I’m far away, I’m closer than your breath
I am with you, More than you know I am the Lord your peace, No evil will conquer you
Steady now your heart and mind, Come into my rest
And oh, let your faith arise. And lift up your weary head
I am with you. Wherever you go Come to me, I’m all you need
Come to me, I’m everything I am your anchor, in the wind and the waves
And I am your steadfast, so don’t be afraid
Though your heart and flesh may fail you, I’m your faithful strength
And I am with you, Wherever you go Don’t look to the right or to the left, keep your eyes on me
You will not be shaken, you will not be moved
I am the hand to hold, I am the truth, I am the way Just come to me, come to me
Cause I’m all that you need!
Of course Im excited, and happy. After a YEAR of waiting, I finally get to go ‘get’ this lil guy for good! He will be ours and we will be his. But please think of us in your prayers as we embark on this adventure of monumental proportions. There is potentially a lot that could go wrong. Of course I am praying it doesn’t, but trying to be prepared if it does. In specifics Im praying:
For our Flight(s) *They are very LONG and with children in tow, they are NEVER fun. No matter how much I love God.
For OUR LUGGAGE. I know this is selfish and crazy to want our stuff so badly, but Im freaking out y’all. This one is HUGE for me. I NEED it all to arrive, I just do. I pray God does not want to stretch me in this area, cause I will go crazy. That being said we will see what happens… I know I just challenged the universe and all that is in it. Carry on, keep moving, nothing to see here….
For Caden to recognize us as family and feel safety and security in his heart. For easy transition.
For our Embassy Appointment on THURSDAY July 19th. That there are no ‘hang ups’ and we are granted permission to come home with Caden.
For our tummies and just all over physical protection against ALL things ugly. Up to and including parasites in babies tummy and any sickness in general.
For our sleep and the always hated jet-lag. Its just brutal, no getting around it really but praying for good sleep for us all.
& For our hearts and attitudes to be kind and loving in the midst of extreme stress and fear. That we are patient and glorifying in all we say and do. ( Im pretty positive this wont happen, but a girl can dream. I am normally the cause of all stress induced monster-dom so I am just talking to myself. Been trying to prep for weeks. When I freak out, its no holds barred. Im not proud of this, but still praying I can keep it cool and make Jesus happy instead of shake His head with extreme remorse like a father who just watched his teenager throw herself on the ground and tantrum it out like a 2 year old. I think I can, I think I can…)
So there you have it. Im a ball of nerves and praying we all make it back in one piece. We will be taking the time to cocoon when we get home so you wont be seeing us for a while If you are local, but we LOVE you all and cant wait till the day when we can let the world in on all of this cuteness…..